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Tarnish
09:04
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Used to be my everything, now you’re just a broken dream
Can’t remember good times, can't see through the grime
I jump at every phone call.
Will this nervousness ever pass?
Keep eyes behind me, watching for attack
I don’t want to feel like this and I don’t want to cry
I just don’t want to try
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Defect
05:09
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Reject this new life
Reject these new lies
Reject this situation
Reject this frustration
Reject this recrimination
Reject this suffocation
Regret that I’ll survive
Regret giving up my time
Reject this vilification
Reject this discrimination
Reject this petrification
Reject this execution
I’ve lost myself, got to keep it together
I may be lost but I’m not forgotten.
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Empty Vessel
06:04
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I’m just a body, empty space
Broken-hearted you got inside and tore me apart
I’m too late to pick up pieces
What’s left in me?
Hollow empty shell nothing left in the core of my being
I’m tired and beaten
Where have I gone to?
I’ve gone to waste
Got what I deserve, didn’t I?
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Dissociative
07:11
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Something has got to give, losing the will to live
Searing pain in my chest, no chance to rest
Feel like giving in just to let it all end
Not sure if I’ve the strength to put this past tense
The rules keep changing and I can’t keep up
My constitution is breaking and I’ve had enough
And still I regret
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Conflicted
05:06
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Waiting for answers that never come
Sitting in purgatory wondering, what I have done?
I’ve hurt everyone around me, but never intentionally
There is a hollow space in the core of my being
My eyes are empty and I don’t trust what they’re seeing
My heart aches, my mind hurts
And no amount of alcohol seems to quench my thirst.
Will you dream for me? Or, will you dream of me?
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My Cycle Of Suffering
06:59
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I can’t stop this cycle of suffering
I can’t seem to forgive myself for anything
The times I’ve left, the times I’ve stayed
The times I should have been there and wasn’t
My soul has disappeared and I’m lost in myself
Try to talk to someone but they never listen
Trivialize my problems to make me feel nothing
It’s hard to be confident when you’ve got nothing left
I'm trapped in this cycle
I guess I wont ever have the things that I want, the things that I need
Self-sacrifice. I wouldn’t allow myself anyway.
Nothing left of my self-worth
I feel like giving up on my dreams, but then I would be like everyone else.
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Diatribe
07:50
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Tell me again how to make things right
Don’t let reason get in the way of a fight
I wade through the flood
The torrent of emotion
I forget how to love and you’ve killed my devotion
I’m lucky to be alive and I will survive
Your verbal arson and controlling lies
I’m being vilified without due process
But don’t you forget, I kept you alive
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Medicated
08:10
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Take over my bed and cry for three days straight
At least you’re more docile in a medicated state
My emotions are being shredded apart
I won’t last much longer with this weight on my heart
My life has become consumed by you
I wanted a partner and just got another chore to do
You said your world was ending because I stood up for myself
I can’t be your world; you’ve got to be independent yourself
But you only seem to function medicated
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Wooden Heart
07:24
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Dried up, shredded, and torn apart
You’ll get nothing but splinters from this wooden heart
It pumps no blood, feels no love
I’ve had enough.
It’s all about you
I went to your therapy, what more could I do?
Took care of your every need, provided for you
I’ve mourned your loss
You’re dead to me
And you can’t come back to life
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